“ Life was so much simpler then. I really just looked forward to enjoying life and being on my own. I feel like being 20, there’s just so much more stress, more things to worry about. I feel so much more worn than in that photo. Somehow I became so cerebral and cold, so disconnected from that firecracker form of myself. I remember having to prove to everyone my worth, whereas now, if they don’t recognize it, I just wave it off. I don’t care for recognition anymore, I don’t care to get noticed anymore for accolades because they speak for themselves. The trash talk, the boasting, that comes with the results. I know I will always push back when pushed, but I’m far less of an instigator than I was then. ”
— I wrote this about myself when I was 20, which feels like an eternity and 100x less miserable than being 21.